Welcome to Honor Your Truth The “Is It True?” Series Episode Sixty-Six “What we focus on we become” Why is it that whenever I feel happy, I start to feel scared…..scared that something bad is going to happen and that it’s gonna happen soon….. coming straight down from the heavens to get me. I’m guilty and that’s just goofy, isn’t it? Thinking that any day now, I’m gonna find out that I have a disease now that I’m feeling good. God forbid I have to get on an airplane. I was feeling optimistic about my life, looking forward to each day with an eager hopefulness when I got on a plane to go on vacation. I had an anxiety attack so bad I demanded they let me out of the plane before it took off. This was many years ago when I was trapped in the equation that good = bad without being aware of the pattern and recognizing the insanity of it. Good cannot equal bad and still be good. It’s just not true. I can now observe it, step outside of the lunacy and wonder…..what the heck and why is it that I think this way? This response, specific to joy, was what I began to notice. It became familiar to me…..the inability to fully experience pleasure without the underlying dialogue that warns me not to get “too comfortable”….not to get "too used to it”. Fleeting moments were ok, but not contentment, not peace, nothing I could rest into….because one never knows….. Everything could be going along just fine and then bam, we’re blind-sided. I remember gleefully jumping on the bed with my sisters and whacking my head really hard on the ceiling. Try it, it’s quite a shock. We rarely receive adequate warning and even when we do, it doesn’t necessarily guarantee escape. Our parents might tell us it isn’t a good idea to jump on the bed, but we really don’t understand why until something bad happens. Stuff happens and there is often no preparatio...